Oh well, hello awesome Shield staffers. Much love for you all.

Quick update: I’ve been excused from all of our classes today and I’ve been staying at the library the entire day because I have to lay-out The Shield, our school paper. It feels nice to be trusted by Ms. Afos. And at the same time, it frustrates me. Mainly because she thinks I am responsible enough for the position. But I guess I have to deal with it. Besides, I get free snacks from her during break time, and hey, I’m the one who’s going to get the credit after.

I haven’t accomplished my requirements yet and can I just say for once that I am honestly going to miss these? You know, getting all stressed out, being too busy, handling too many projects. I’m going to miss these because they keep my head out from trouble. They take me away from my dangerous thoughts.

October  21   ( 4 )

October  20   ( 3 )

IV - LOVE 2014 - 2015 | RETREAT
I’m so glad I got to experience this kind of activity with this group of people.

There are so much more memories and I haven’t been writing lately but I hope after this week’s exams, I’ll be able to. For now, while I have lots of work to do, allow me leave this blog with these photos.

October  13   ( 2 )

Excerpts from some retreat letters that made me smile (and cry).

October  13   ( 2 )

"

I am not a man of holiness and religion, but I believe I have a say about it, and I guess the time is now.

When we were kids, our families would always take us to fancy churches and big cathedrals with fancy domes in them. There they taught us everything what we should do to get into heaven:

Wear these totems, they’ll get you inside heaven.
Don’t correlate and give peace to other religions, that won’t get you inside heaven.
Do not cogitate about the beliefs of other religions, they will defile you.
Do not buy any material that is being sold by men who have cloths that are wrapped around their heads, those are bewitched by dark incantations.

DO NOT.

DO NOT.

DO NOT.

At this point in life, I want to believe that religion was meant to bring us together. To tell you all, I have not seen a true Christian, a true Muslim, a true Buddhist, a true Jehovan, and so forth. All I ever see are people who argue about which group will shit their asses down to earth and then the rest can burn in hell and raise their middle fingers up to those who do.

I always ask myself, “why didn’t I ever help that poor old lady?” “why didn’t I ever tell that crying man that there is always hope” “why didn’t I ever put up a hand for that one kid in class who was always bullied verbally?” “why didn’t I ever ask the girl who was catcalled if she was okay?”

I’ll never really know why the people who go to church every Sunday, attend religious festivities could be the most cruel people. I’ll never really know why the outcasts, the rebels, the people with tattoos could have the biggest hearts. I pray for the people who went bad and insane for the sake of kindness, for the people who died just so we could live, for those who have been kind enough to those who experienced cruelty.

It does not take juxtaposition to see who you would choose: a pretty white boy or a bearded, clothed Muslim. But what if would change if you knew if the boy had blood on his hands which he hides behind his back?

How cruel religion can be, yes?

"


Christians: I go to church every Sunday, give donations apathetically, use slander against other religions, but hey, I have the best religion, don’t I?

- thepoetofbedlam

(via thepoetofbedlam)

How do you do that, my love? Damn, you write so well ❤

October  5   ( 2 )
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"Not everyone can feel things as deeply as you. Most people, their feelings are … bland, tasteless. They’ll never understand what it’s like to read a poem and feel almost like they’re flying, or to see a bleeding fish and feel grief that shatters their heart…"


— Garey, Juliann. Too Bright to Hear Too Loud to See. (via wordsnquotes)

13 Confessions on a Sunday Morning

  1. Today’s the Ateneo College Entrance Test.
  2. And I did not take it. 
  3. I’m too depressed to take it.
  4. Besides, what’s the point of taking the test when I know I’ll only end up studying here?
  5. Ateneo has been my dream school since 5th grade.
  6. I never told anyone about my dream school because I already knew from the start that my family won’t allow me to study there.
  7. I payed an amount for the application form and (I think) my essay was nicely written but I blew my chance again.
  8. My parents didn’t know about that.
  9. I have a huge problem with my health and my mentality.
  10. Also, financially.
  11. I want to be great and successful in the future but I don’t know how.
  12. I am so fucking insecure about everyone who’s already happy with what they are doing.
  13. I have no idea how am I going to make the people around me proud. 
September  27   ( 2 )

"Human beings act very much like storms when there’s something to say. Very rarely in nature does a deluge catch you by complete surprise. There are the signs before—the sky darkening, the wind picking up, the air smelling like rain even before a drop has hit."


— Six Earlier Days, Every Day, David Levithan (via dearbernardine)

Thank you for spicing up my month, Collaborative team!

September  23   ( 2 )

"My feelings are too loud for words and too shy for the world."


“Forgotten Home”, Dejan Stojanovic (via luxology)
Anonymous: hi jyllie! love you always! stay awesome! (i've been stalking you hahahaha) :* :D - mergel <3

Awww!! Love ya, Aly!! <3

A preview of last week’s stressful but euphoric Press Conference.

September  14   ( 2 )

katrinamercado: HI ATE JYLL U R RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME OMG OMG OMG AM I KILIGZ YEZ I AM HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

OMG KAAAAAT YOU ARE SO ADORABLE HAHAHA LOVE YOUUU

eveningsbride: Hello. I just wanted to tell you how much I admire you so. You are a lovely, lovely person. You are made of magic, Jyll. For some reason, whenever I go through your blog, I feel calm and safe. I hope you're happy. I really hope you are. The stars are smiling for you.

Thank you so much. You have no idea how much you’ve made me smile. People like you are made of magic, too. ❤